Its really brave of you to post this kid, indeed there are lessons to teach and learn herre. I am just in the begginner stage the part where after one or two heartbreaks - your heart becomes stone cold and bitter. I just had my third hearbreak in a year: right before Christmas, worse yet I went home to Jamaica to only hear that my first love has been hiding a secret from me. She has a kid now, I think thats what sealed it for me, I doubt i'll be able to do the whole love thing ever again. I mean shits strange, I am talking to females and dont even give a shit.....none of the shit they say impacts me anymore - none of I Love You's or the I Wanna Have Your Baby's none of that shit. I mean its freaking weird, its now when I get this way the females are beginning to recognize its as if women rather be treated like bitches to appreciate. In all my previous nice and sweet parts of my life....I couldn't get pussy for shit. Now, its like the rain is falling pussy. Just the other day a girl damn near killed herself to prove to me how much shes in love with me, OD'd on some tylenol and I dont want y'all think I am crazy but I didn't giive a shit cuz I remembered when I had thoughts of jumping off a building or two for a girl. That was then, now I average over 200 calls a day, and be hitting pussy on an average 10 - 20 times a week, I know theres only seven days a week, but hey its like an animal is let loose or sommin.
So, reading this a brother can relate even sympathize - I feel a change coming on when I read this: you know stuff like this makes you realize in truth an awe that your not the only who think life's a bitch, then you die......
I have my test every couple weeks, the results are negative and I would swear I wont go back to to my old ways, but there always that one female who needs a lesson or a bitch slap who gets you back in the game. The reality in all of this, there are consequences for everything you do..... though this threads not big on changing people, it definitley hit me hard... there were some things I needed to read/hear and I found it all here.
Be Strong Truth..... and Its a Blessing That You Decided To Share