how does your life changes affect your production?

[Cold Truth]

i ask this becausei have been listening to three personal classics right now- Wu Tang Forever, Cappadonnas The Pillage, and Lyricist Lounge Volume 1.

the tracks i have listened to the most are Cappa's "black boy" and "young hearts", and Primes "No Matter" and the whole 1 disc of the wu forever.

i remember what life was like at the time. i was a runaway on and off the street, having to literally run from cops and social workers who found me a few times, my family was a complete wreck.... we were all in either foster care or group homes, mom was having more kids, my girl was essentially everyone else's girl, broke as can posibly be....., i was getting jumped a lot (i live in southern california, and i loved the color red....figure it out...)

i hated life at the time. i was miserable and stressed to no end- and pretty much resigned to that future of hopelessness. all i had was my music to listen to, my breaking, and my notebook to write rhymes in.

now,i have a great job, i live wit hmy uncle and grandma on 5 acres of peaceful land, i got a pretty damn good setup on my pc with some major pieces to be added and i am doing the things i love- both with my job and my music. life is now, for the most , good. i have a few major family issues still, but life is nothing like it was growing up, and i thank God for that. but the las t couple years, writing has been a problem.... and i didnt understand why.

basically, i have gotten comfortable- and in doing so gotten lazy. i can afford to chill on the playstation for a whole weekend. i dont feel the urgent need to get this done. my writing doesnt reflect the raw passion, frustration, anger or power it once did to reflect the life i had at the time. its a trip, because i understood what made alot of those classic albums so great- biggie, nas, tupac, etc- and these guys were all in the middle of the life that i have left behind......

and these cd's are reminding me of those times, and its kind of put me back into that mode thought wise.

so, question. am i being "fake" or not "keeping it real" if i am back in that mode, writing about things that i havent truly lived for the last three years? it's just kind of got me wondering since you couldnt really guess what my past was like by looking at my current life and lifestyle.

anyone else deal with a circumstance like this at all?

 

[trez260]

i havent dealt with this situation, but i'll throw this out there dawg. you've admitted that you've made a mistake, as far as not staying focused and passionate about your craft. there's nothing wrong wit bettering your living situation, that's what you're supposed to do. but if you're really passionate about your craft, that drive, that hunger should remain consistent, regardless of what you have and what you dont have. always elevate the sound, elevate the message, but in some cases, keep the same formula. you've admitted that what you've put is hasnt been that fire. i think what you have to do now is dig deep within you're self to find that heat. and as far as talkin bout experiences you're not in. well if you've been in'em, them speak on'em in a past tense, while also spittin about elevating, about challenging yourself, etc. i don't think you're fake dawg. i think that's a situation most incounter once there living situation gets better. that passion should still be there, maybe in the midst of getting comfortable, you've lost and you just have to find it. maybe spending a lil time in the areas that you use to be might unsurface it, nonetheless, you just need to find that hunger within you dawg. search ya soul. peace.

 

[RigorMortis]

yo my man, you can write about what you want, the only thing that counts it's got to sound convincing, if you bring things from your heart (no matter what subject, no matter what time, no matter how real or fictional) there will always be people who will feel what you are saying, so do what you got to do only you are capable of closing your own doors.. dont let it be kept locked up inside.