I'm losing it all really. I can't enjoy shit! man, I remember it was just a year ago when I first heard big jet plane. I'd just turn off all the lights, put my 2 kg headphone on my head like it's nothing and just vibe. Everything would cease existing, it felt like Fucking Orgasms, except better. I wouldn't know but I still know. just a year before that, the scott pilgrim movie did that to me; I'd listen to so much rock n indie shit after that movie, you wouldn't believe. the "Moody" "Vibey" Guitars with shittons of reverb on them just took me to some other universe. that was All I wanted from music. to take me somewhere.
That was my relationship with music always. Billie's music did that to me before that, so did Kanye's and... Hell, even singular songs like it was a good day or Locked out of Heaven or...
now it's just fucking dull. I can't vibe to anything. sure, some songs are "Good", objectively, but nothing takes me anywhere anymore. it feels as if I'm way too... conscious of the details or anxious or... to enjoy anything. I'd still enjoy a movie, but not like before either. I remember the first time I watched fight club I was affected by it for like a month, and all my beats/songs were inspired by it for a long, Long while. now I just force myself to finish movies because I can't not, yk, and then it's over. MY LIFE IS LITERALLY NOTHING WITHOUT "VIBES". HALPPPPP
That was my relationship with music always. Billie's music did that to me before that, so did Kanye's and... Hell, even singular songs like it was a good day or Locked out of Heaven or...
now it's just fucking dull. I can't vibe to anything. sure, some songs are "Good", objectively, but nothing takes me anywhere anymore. it feels as if I'm way too... conscious of the details or anxious or... to enjoy anything. I'd still enjoy a movie, but not like before either. I remember the first time I watched fight club I was affected by it for like a month, and all my beats/songs were inspired by it for a long, Long while. now I just force myself to finish movies because I can't not, yk, and then it's over. MY LIFE IS LITERALLY NOTHING WITHOUT "VIBES". HALPPPPP